It has been a crazy Mother's Day already (i.e. 16 month old at church makes for several hair pulling moments) but I am happy to be sitting on the couch with my feet up while Alexa naps. She seems to always try to catch up on sleep on the weekends (THANK YOU LORD!).
I have many emotions today. I think of my mother and the fact that while this has been me and Aaron's journey to parenthood she has also been affected. Countless hugs, hours listening to me sob on the phone over grief, fear, sickness, and joy! My mom has always been there and always will be for as long as she can. For that I am grateful. I think of Aaron's mom, Darlene and stepmom, Jeanie. I have cried several times throughout this pregnancy over the fact that I never got to meet Darlene, that she will never hold our babies here in the present, and that she was taken too soon from this earth. However, my heart leaps with joy that a wonderful woman has been able to be there for my husband throughout his life. Someone to wipe away his tears, comfort him, and listen to him when needed. God is good and always provides! I think of Alexa's birthmother and the fact that I would not be celebrating this day as I am had it not been for her. What courage, what sacrifice...what LOVE!
The last few weeks have been better for me. I haven't been as sick but don't think I am ever going to be that glowing, pregnant woman. I am still having to continue my injections. The 1-2 days following the medicine I am usually exhausted, unmotivated, sore, and sick. At least I can get out of bed! Praise the Lord for that one! Heartburn is bad and I know it is for many pregnant women. I may need to mention this more to my doctor though as the days after my injections it is so bad that I often do get nauseated from it. It doesn't seem to matter what I eat, how much I eat, or if I lay down right away or not. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I have already bought stock in Tums and stay away from foods I know will cause a flare up. I am also feeling some round ligament pain which is worse because I am still coughing (and seems to aggravate the pains) from the cold I caught from Alexa, or my students, or that lady who touched the milk after coughing into her hand at the grocery store. Ugh! Anyways, I am very thankful to be where I am at today compared to even a few weeks ago. We have another ultrasound in 2 weeks. I will have more blood work done the 20th. Hoping for good news and most importantly a big, strong, healthy baby!
