Mary's Song

Hello! I know it has been awhile since my last post. I have been unusually busy. Over the weekend we had our first Christmas party. It was a lot of fun as usual. It was Christmas for my dad's side of the family which is always crazy but a good time. Here are a few fun pictures (and grandma, we are so happy you are back home!):

So although we had a blast over the weekend that means we were also out of town all weekend so nothing got done at home.  There has been grocery shopping, list making, laundry, cleaning, meetings and other odds and ends. I haven't even had much time for my typical prayer/reflection time and I can tell. I just feel out of sorts. I am sure it is a combination of being out of my normal routine and the realization that we have less than 6 weeks until a baby could be in our home! I have so many thoughts and feelings lately I don't know how to put it in words. I received a really sweet email from D last week. She has an appointment tomorrow to check on the baby so I can't wait to talk to her. It has been too long. With losing my voice the week before our only communication has been via Aaron, text, or 

email. 

It has been awhile since a song has affected me deeply, but today on my way home from work I was in my car listening to Christmas songs on the radio and I heard Amy Grant's version of "Breath of Heaven (Mary's Song)" and found myself overwhelmed with emotion. The first verse about Mary being chosen to carry God's Son obviously didn't ring true for me, but the rest of the song felt like the cry of my heart lately. This is a song I have heard for years and years, I even sang it as part of my high school choir but the meaning of the words touched me today at this time in my life. I have recently been praying the Immaculate Conception Novena (the feast day is December 8th) so the fact that this particular song stuck out to me is really touching. 

Lyrics.....

I have traveled many moonless nights,

Cold and weary with a babe inside,

And I wonder what I've done.

Holy father you have come,

And chosen me now to carry your son.

I am waiting in a silent prayer.

I am frightened by the load I bear.

In a world as cold as stone,

Must I walk this path alone?

Be with me now.

Be with me now.

Breath of heaven,

Hold me together,

Be forever near me,

Breath of heaven.

Breath of heaven,

Lighten my darkness,

Pour over me your holiness,

For you are holy.

Breath of heaven.

Do you wonder as you watch my face,

If a wiser one should have had my place,

But I offer all I am

For the mercy of your plan.

Help me be strong.

Help me be.

Help me.

Breath of heaven,

Hold me together,

Be forever near me,

Breath of heaven.

Breath of heaven,

Lighten my darkness,

Pour over me your holiness,

For you are holy.

Breath of heaven,

Hold me together,

Be forever near me,

Breath of heaven.

Breath of heaven,

Lighten my darkness,

Pour over me your holiness,

For you are holy.

Breath of heaven.

Breath of heaven.

Breath of heaven.

Oh and please take note of what else we have been contending with lately (I don't think a day goes by that the ornaments stay on the tree)...